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Jul. 27th, 2017 10:35 am
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There wasn’t really a word for Sunny’s mood. It’s wasn’t deep enough for sadness, it wasn’t gray enough for numb. The paper shredder in her belly wouldn’t even properly start up. If anybody asked her, she’d just call it… crying. That was her mood. Crying. Every once in a while, she’d be going about her day and then suddenly she wouldn’t be able to see clearly and her face would be wet. It wasn’t even proper sobbing or anything, her eyes just leaked. Maybe that was the right word--leaking. She didn’t much want to think about what the effect was.

It wasn’t like she hadn’t expected this. Not like Faizel hadn’t told her before about how hard it was to… people, basically. Not like he'd disappeared from her life completely with no way to reach him. There had been a goodbye, and it had been amiable, and she had been able to do it with a smile. She’d even been smart enough to ignore her id’s urging to ask for one last kiss, just because she knew if he’d flinched again she wouldn’t have been able to take it.

It wasn’t like she’d never have feelings for someone again or anything. She wasn’t even twenty-three yet.

But it was like... like she was trying to start her ignition and couldn’t get the engine to turn over. She could do stuff, she wasn’t paralyzed, but she was waiting for the day to actually start and it never quite seemed to do it.

Later in the afternoon she spent a rather aimless hour spent in a bookstore trying to find something that appealed. She tried. She picked things up and read cover blurbs and first pages, but nothing seemed to grab her.

And then she was leaking again, and the shop girl was looking at her funny. She knew this was the time to quip, but there was that cold engine leaving her not without words but without any fire to wield them properly. So she just left. Her vision meant that she bumped into someone she should have seen coming, and this required no particular feelings, so when she smiled and apologized, it was almost normal.

“Sorry,” she said, like her eyes weren’t leaking. “I didn’t mean it.”

Date: 2017-07-27 11:31 pm (UTC)
dr_spencer_reid: (thinking face)
From: [personal profile] dr_spencer_reid
There was a small cafe to the right, and Spencer hesitated a beat before gesturing at a table outside.

"Do you want to sit for a minute? You know, every year we learn more about the potential health benefits of tea. The research into the beneficial effects of regular tea drinking and how it might help protect against carcinoma of the skin comes to mind first, but-"

Spencer paused a beat, cutting himself off and getting back on topic.

"...But it's also considered very comforting."

Date: 2017-07-28 01:14 am (UTC)
dr_spencer_reid: (mega dork face)
From: [personal profile] dr_spencer_reid
Spencer nodded, gesturing at the table and pushing his hair back. "Um, I'll go in and get the tea. What kind do you prefer? Black, green, herbal..."

He trailed off, doing his best not to rattle off a list of every tea he knew.

Date: 2017-07-28 02:54 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] dr_spencer_reid
"It's nothing," Spencer assured her, dipping into the shop.

He returned a while later with black tea for her and coffee for himself. "I wasn't sure how you took it," he added as he dumped packets of sugar, honey and sealed tubs of cream onto the table.

Date: 2017-07-28 07:35 pm (UTC)
dr_spencer_reid: (brown)
From: [personal profile] dr_spencer_reid
Spencer, on the other hand, added plenty of sugar and cream to his coffee. ...Though mostly sugar.

"There's nothing pathetic about expressing emotional pain. In all seriousness, it's a sign of a well-adjusted person," Spencer replied practically. "Do you want to talk about it? ...Or, you know, not talk about it?" he offered.

Date: 2017-07-29 12:34 am (UTC)
dr_spencer_reid: (coffee)
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"Spencer," he replied, offering a small and sympathetic smile. "That seems like a totally reasonable thing to shed tears over, Sunny," he assured her.

Spencer didn't know much about relationships, but he'd had more than his share of heartache.

Date: 2017-07-29 05:13 pm (UTC)
dr_spencer_reid: (tilt)
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"Do you think you're upset because they're gone, or because that chapter of your life is closing?" Spencer asked. "Sometimes the idea of knowing you need to move on hurts much more than letting go or saying goodbye."

Date: 2017-07-30 10:36 pm (UTC)
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"Well, for whatever it's worth coming from a stranger, I'm sorry," Spencer said gently.

Date: 2017-07-31 04:58 pm (UTC)
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Spencer nodded a little, looking thoughtful, then leaning back in his seat. "Maybe you should get away for a while. Just a weekend, sometimes separating yourself from a place that reminds you of something or someone can help."

Date: 2017-07-31 11:57 pm (UTC)
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"Is that where your family is from? I assumed American, but do you have relatives there?" Spencer asked curiously.

Date: 2017-08-01 12:46 am (UTC)
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Spencer smiled warmly at that, not her accent or her words, but the fact that she had smiled.

"You seem like you're really looking forward to going back for a while. How long has it been since you were last home?"

Date: 2017-08-02 01:53 pm (UTC)
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"I'm sure you'll come back feeling renewed and refreshed," Spencer said, sounding confident on her behalf. His phone buzzed, and he pulled it out of his pocket just enough to see who it was.

"Sorry, I have to take this," he said, excusing himself from the table to take his call.

Date: 2017-08-03 08:17 am (UTC)
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Spencer returned a few moments later, looking a bit less cheerful, but still finding a smile. "Sorry that was a friend. ...Well, not a friend, an acquaintance. I'm looking for a friend, so I've reached out to several contacts I have here, and... I don't know why I'm explaining all that, sorry," he finished with a slightly sheepish smile.

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