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Jul. 27th, 2017 10:35 am
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There wasn’t really a word for Sunny’s mood. It’s wasn’t deep enough for sadness, it wasn’t gray enough for numb. The paper shredder in her belly wouldn’t even properly start up. If anybody asked her, she’d just call it… crying. That was her mood. Crying. Every once in a while, she’d be going about her day and then suddenly she wouldn’t be able to see clearly and her face would be wet. It wasn’t even proper sobbing or anything, her eyes just leaked. Maybe that was the right word--leaking. She didn’t much want to think about what the effect was.

It wasn’t like she hadn’t expected this. Not like Faizel hadn’t told her before about how hard it was to… people, basically. Not like he'd disappeared from her life completely with no way to reach him. There had been a goodbye, and it had been amiable, and she had been able to do it with a smile. She’d even been smart enough to ignore her id’s urging to ask for one last kiss, just because she knew if he’d flinched again she wouldn’t have been able to take it.

It wasn’t like she’d never have feelings for someone again or anything. She wasn’t even twenty-three yet.

But it was like... like she was trying to start her ignition and couldn’t get the engine to turn over. She could do stuff, she wasn’t paralyzed, but she was waiting for the day to actually start and it never quite seemed to do it.

Later in the afternoon she spent a rather aimless hour spent in a bookstore trying to find something that appealed. She tried. She picked things up and read cover blurbs and first pages, but nothing seemed to grab her.

And then she was leaking again, and the shop girl was looking at her funny. She knew this was the time to quip, but there was that cold engine leaving her not without words but without any fire to wield them properly. So she just left. Her vision meant that she bumped into someone she should have seen coming, and this required no particular feelings, so when she smiled and apologized, it was almost normal.

“Sorry,” she said, like her eyes weren’t leaking. “I didn’t mean it.”

Date: 2017-07-31 11:57 pm (UTC)
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"Is that where your family is from? I assumed American, but do you have relatives there?" Spencer asked curiously.

Date: 2017-08-01 12:46 am (UTC)
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Spencer smiled warmly at that, not her accent or her words, but the fact that she had smiled.

"You seem like you're really looking forward to going back for a while. How long has it been since you were last home?"

Date: 2017-08-02 01:53 pm (UTC)
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"I'm sure you'll come back feeling renewed and refreshed," Spencer said, sounding confident on her behalf. His phone buzzed, and he pulled it out of his pocket just enough to see who it was.

"Sorry, I have to take this," he said, excusing himself from the table to take his call.

Date: 2017-08-03 08:17 am (UTC)
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Spencer returned a few moments later, looking a bit less cheerful, but still finding a smile. "Sorry that was a friend. ...Well, not a friend, an acquaintance. I'm looking for a friend, so I've reached out to several contacts I have here, and... I don't know why I'm explaining all that, sorry," he finished with a slightly sheepish smile.

Date: 2017-08-03 02:25 pm (UTC)
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"No leads yet," he said softly, shrugging one shoulder. "It's alright though, I've got time to keep looking."

Date: 2017-08-03 06:05 pm (UTC)
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"As sure as I can be," Spencer replied. "It's... It's a complicated situation."

Date: 2017-08-04 02:23 am (UTC)
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"You mean my friend?" Spencer asked, even though he knew that's what she meant. Clearly, she could tell he wasn't local, so why had he asked? He wasn't thinking straight, and he shook his head a little to make himself focus.

"He's American, I- I'm not sure how much I should say beyond that. Like I said, it's all a bit complicated."

Date: 2017-08-04 03:32 pm (UTC)
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"Las Vegas, originally. Though I came to London via Quantico, Virginia," Spencer admitted with a small smile. "I guess that was home, really."

Date: 2017-08-04 04:43 pm (UTC)
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Spencer hesitated a moment, looking uncomfortable and shrugging one shoulder.

"I was a Special Agent at the BAU," he replied honestly.

Date: 2017-08-04 11:44 pm (UTC)
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"No, no you're really not. These past few months just haven't been great, that's all," he assured her. "Seems cruel to pile misery on top of misery."

She didn't seem to be crying anymore though, and that was something. Even if it was only temporary.

"What's your favourite thing to do in London?" he asked, moving the topic to a hopefully lighter subject.

Date: 2017-08-06 09:34 pm (UTC)
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"I haven't been there yet," Spencer admitted with a faint smile. "I'm looking forward to going to the Tower of London soon though."

Date: 2017-08-06 11:54 pm (UTC)
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"I feel like I could stay here for years and still not see it all," Spencer admitted. "I intend to try though."

Date: 2017-08-07 12:47 am (UTC)
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"It's a sad truth. I hate thinking about how much I'm missing out on. All the things I might never see, books I might never read, places I might never go... It's overwhelming when you sit and think about it," he said, looking lost in thought for just a moment.

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