Kersen (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
kersen) wrote in ![[community profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/community.png)
londoncallingrpg2017-01-22 08:03 pm
kersen) wrote in londoncallingrpg2017-01-22 08:03 pm
Entry tags:
OTA
Kersen sometimes did this thing where when he was feeling his worst, he tried to look his best. Elaborate drag when he was the most down, for example. Like maybe he could force cheerfulness with sequins and lipstick.
This time, he couldn't seem to muster up the energy for drag, though. What "look" said 'I just found out a lover is a serial killer'? Particularly coupled with 'what does this say about my taste in men'? Finally, he'd just gone with the forced cheerfulness: dark purple leather pants and a shirt (gifted to him by an employee years ago) that read OF COURSE I'M PRO-GAY, DO YOU THINK I WORK THIS HARD TO BE AN AMATEUR GAY in bright rainbow colors.
... also he'd started smoking again. Which was a little ironic since he was pretty sure that any effect they had on him was purely psychosomatic.
However, at the moment he was having a smoke break outside his bar. It was fairly early yet, just past 9pm. The streets were still full, lively with people leaving restaurants and shops, heading into bars and theaters. He liked this time of night, where the world was still alive. Wished he could experience more of it.
Some asshole walking by threw a homophobic slur at him, and he was briefly, stupidly tempted to flash his fangs as a threat. Instead he said, "The most fabulous you'll ever see, honey," and flicked the cigarette to the ground. Luckily it was the cowardly sort of asshole, and he just stuck up his middle finger and kept walking.
This time, he couldn't seem to muster up the energy for drag, though. What "look" said 'I just found out a lover is a serial killer'? Particularly coupled with 'what does this say about my taste in men'? Finally, he'd just gone with the forced cheerfulness: dark purple leather pants and a shirt (gifted to him by an employee years ago) that read OF COURSE I'M PRO-GAY, DO YOU THINK I WORK THIS HARD TO BE AN AMATEUR GAY in bright rainbow colors.
... also he'd started smoking again. Which was a little ironic since he was pretty sure that any effect they had on him was purely psychosomatic.
However, at the moment he was having a smoke break outside his bar. It was fairly early yet, just past 9pm. The streets were still full, lively with people leaving restaurants and shops, heading into bars and theaters. He liked this time of night, where the world was still alive. Wished he could experience more of it.
Some asshole walking by threw a homophobic slur at him, and he was briefly, stupidly tempted to flash his fangs as a threat. Instead he said, "The most fabulous you'll ever see, honey," and flicked the cigarette to the ground. Luckily it was the cowardly sort of asshole, and he just stuck up his middle finger and kept walking.
no subject
There was no mistaking the desire in Kersen's expression when he first saw. But still, he stayed put, not moving closer. Looking then a bit unsure. "You're gorgeous. But I - I don't want to make you feel - " Kersen was sensitive to people wanting him for something other than him. He'd been with men who wanted a woman. He didn't like it.
no subject
When Angelique had seen a kindred spirit in Kersen, had suggested they might understand each other in ways other people didn't, it had been because of this. This exactly. Kersen knew how to look beyond presentation and appearance, and see the person beneath. Angelique had never been quite so bare before him -- even now, still half clothed.
"It's only that I don't usually let anyone see me without my face," he added, and began to move toward Kersen with a gentle little sway of hips. "I feel a little... exposed."
no subject
no subject
"I want you to know me. Really... know me."
no subject
"Tell me how," he said quietly.
no subject
no subject
no subject
He bit his lip, drew a breath, and repeated more firmly, "Yes."
no subject