"No, it's not like that," Sunny said, her voice wobbling a bit. But she took the handkerchief anyway and tried to dry her eyes. "I'm just... I'm relieved. I didn't want to do that and I know I didn't think it through and I was too upset to say anything intelligible, but I was so afraid. I could just see where we were going and there was so much tension and resentment lying that way and I couldn't do that. And when I finally calmed down enough to really think about it I realized that yeah, I could deal with us having whatever between us worked, but I couldn't deal with not having my friend at all."