Be Mine - Valentine's Day 2017

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Lucky in love or not, London was a lovely place to find yourself on Valentine's Day. From romantic walks through various parks, to intimate dinners or shared deserts in the many restaurants and cafe's- There was something for everyone, because if wandering or dining wasn't for you, well, there were plenty of organised events to attend.

London couldn't claim to be the city of love, but it was certainly a city of possibilities.

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[just_hex]

"You think so? Now you're fine with me and my true love?" he snapped bitterly. "This is never going to be alright between us," he told Fin, then he looked to Willy. "It's never going to be alright. I ruined everything and you took advantage! So I'm free now? I'm not bound? Great. Great. I'll just go. Simple as that for you wankers, isn't it? Fucking fae. Both of you. Magic. Power. Fuck you," he shouted, then turned on his heel and stormed off. In the moment he resolved to never see either of them again.

He loved Danny. Not like Fin, it would never be like what he felt for Fin, but Danny was normal. Danny was kind and he was everything Hex had ever wanted in his life. And it wasn't complicated.

And it certainly wasn't fucking magic.

Willy watched him go.

"I thought he would be grateful," he mused.

[prince_of_nymphs]

Fin was silent for a long moment, then inhaled sharply, looking at Will, and then looking at Hex's retreating form.

"Yeah. ...Yeah, thanks Will. Thanks a lot," he said softly, eyes damp though tears never came.

For a moment he wasn't sure what to do- But after a beat he took off after Hex. Will could be mad, right now Fin didn't have it in him to care. He didn't buy for one moment that Will was so naive that he thought any of this was alright.

"Hex! Hex, wait," he said, catching the man's arm as he caught u,p and trying to pull him to a stop. "I was being a prick, and I'm sorry, but- Neither of us have exactly been saints here. ...I don't- I don't want us to be like this. I don't want to fight, and- I love you, and I can't just pretend I don't- But I'm angry too. With Will, with you... With the world sometimes..."

He trailed off, hoping Hex would speak to him.

[just_hex]

Hex jerked his arm out of Fin's hold. But he did stop and turn to face him.

"You spin me round, you know that? You love me, you don't, you're jealous, you're tempting...your bloody magic gets under me skin and I can't stop meself when I'm around you. I don't want to fight, either, but there ain't no middle ground, is there? You're never going to really forgive me for me wish, and I'm not ever going to forgive meself. And if I'm going to make a go of it with Danny and have something real, something all me own, because God knows I'll never have you all to meself, then I can't be around you. I can't. I get close to you and I forget him and that's not fair. Not to any of us," he blasted.

[prince_of_nymphs]

"So- What? We just ignore each other? Pretend there isn't this thing between us?" Fin asked quietly. "Is that what you want?"

[just_hex]

"No," he replied, practically whinging. "I don't know, Fin. I don't know. Quitting you is just as hard as quitting drinking. Worse, because I think about you all the time. I miss you. Me head and me mouth want a drink. Me whole body and soul want you. Do you see? Do you see why i can't do that? Do that to Danny/ Do that to meself?"

He sighed.

"Maybe it's be worth another year and a day if I could wish to Will back there that I just...not feel like this."

[prince_of_nymphs]

"Don't say that- Nothing is worth that," Fin said, wrapping his arms around himself and sighing softly. "Hex, I- I'm just some guy, you know? Fae or not, I'm just some twat from Manchester with more hair than brains, and one day you're going to wake up and be over it, over me. You don't need a wish for that. If you want me to stay away though, I will. I can do that. ...I don't want to hurt you. I'd miss you, but- I don't like being the reason you're unhappy. I love you, you're my best mate. In another lifetime I think- I think we could have been happy, but this thing with Will... I don't even know what it is, if I'm honest. Sometimes I hate him, but the thought of living without him- God, it's so painful. It's not natural."

[just_hex]

As Fin hugged himself, Hex moved closer. One small touch with fingertips, then his whole hand, then both hands pulling Fin closer.

"It'd be worth it," he said softly. "I'd be his servant forever if it meant I could be your mate, just your mate, and we could all be happy."

[prince_of_nymphs]

Hex pulled him closer, and Fin pressed himself tight against the other man, his face buried against his neck.

"I wouldn't be happy," he said softly. "I'd ache every day."

[just_hex]

"I don't know what to do, Fin," he replied, burying his face against the man's neck and breathing him in.

[prince_of_nymphs]

Fin held on a moment longer, then finally let go.

"Maybe that's okay," he said, his voice a bit rough sounding and eyes rimmed with red. "You know, people- People are always telling other people what they'd do. You know? Like, if I were you I'd blah, blah, blah- Right? They look in at your problem, and it's so clear to them how to fix it, and they say- That's how you fix it, just fix it! Right, but, would they? I mean, we all have these messy things in our lives, you know? Things that aren't tidy or aren't good, and- Maybe that's not bad. Maybe it's good to be messy. If everything was neat and tidy, or cut and dry, it would be so boring, and so- Empty. Maybe it's okay that we're like this."

He looked down at his feet, then sighed. "Neither of us knows what's meant to be. Maybe- Maybe we feel this way because the universe has plans for us. Maybe we should just let things play out, and just, you know, be careful with one another in the meantime. Maybe both be better men and better friends."

[just_hex]

Hex huffed a soft laugh, his own eyes a bit watery.

"Maybe," he agreed. "You make it sound so sensible. Just...try. Try harder." He laughed again, soft and just a little bitter.

"One day at a time," he said, quoting the motto of recovery.

[prince_of_nymphs]

Fin nodded a little, then wrapped his coat tighter around himself.

"You should get him a coat," he said quietly. "I've seen him around town in that shitty thin coat. ...Buy him a nice one, something warm. So when he puts it on and goes out around town, it's like you're there, holding him. He'd like that, I think. ...It's precious, but- It's not flowers and candy. It's thoughtful, like you."

[just_hex]

"A coat," he repeated softly. He nodded once, then reached up to rub his eyes. "That's a good idea. I think he's had the coat he wears for a good, long time. Maybe it's time for something new."

He thought then of Danny, of the shape of him, and his style. It would have to be just right. Just right. Hex wanted him to love it and wear it and, yes, think of him when he did.

Fin knew him so well. So well he could tell him what to get for his own bloody boyfriend.

[prince_of_nymphs]

Fin nodded a little, then looked back at Will.

"I should go. I- I'll see you, Hex."

[willysilver]

"Yeah, I'll see, Fin," Hex said, then he wandered away, this time with a clear head.

Willy leaned against a pole, scrolling through his phone as he waited. News, news, videos of puppies and kittens...

He looked up when he caught sight of Hex leaving. Then he pushed off the pole and long strides carried him to Fin.

"Better now?" he asked.

[prince_of_nymphs]

"No," Fin replied bluntly, holding Will's gaze for a moment, then sighing. "There's no way you thought that was acceptable. What the hell were you thinking?"

[willysilver]

"That you should not fight, that he should not fight," Willy replied. "He is your true friend. I ache to see the two of you together with anger between you. And so I made him leave. It may not be acceptable, but I felt it was right."

[prince_of_nymphs]

Fin did not look convinced.

"So you attacked him?" he asked, one brow raised. "...Whatever, Will. Let's just go home."

[willysilver]

"That was hardly an attack," he replied. "He was not harmed. I find it unfair you think the worst of me. I only wanted to protect you. From Hex and from yourself."

[prince_of_nymphs]

"He was in pain," Fin countered, "And I don't need protecting from Hex- The only time I have was thanks to your magic, remember? If you really want to protect me, then the right way would be to keep your magic out of our friendship, Will. ...Besides, sometimes you have to fight with the people you love. It stops things from getting toxic."

[willysilver]

Willy was quiet and thoughtful for a moment. Ultimately he sighed and shook his head.

"I have watched mortals fight for centuries and I have never seen it stop anything other than goodwill. It opens a wound that never heals," he said.

[prince_of_nymphs]

"I don't care. Don't attack my friends, even if you think it's for my own good," Fin said bluntly- Since blunt was the only way to be with Will it seemed, when it came to things like this. "It's controlling and I don't like it."

[willysilver]

The fae nodded then. Direct and firm, Fin's words struck him and stuck. No subterfuge or metaphor. He did not like it. That...that Willy could understand and obey.

"I will never do it again," he promised. "May I now escort you home?"

[prince_of_nymphs]

"Still haven't gotten you a gift though," Fin sighed. "That's the real reason I was out, actually. I've been looking for days, but- You sort of don't want for much, you know? Haven't had a clue what to get you. I keep looking for something special. Something unique."

[willysilver]

"I do not require gifts, Fin," Willy chuckled. "I have you in my heart and by my side. What more could I want for?"

He paused.

"Coffee might be nice. Why not buy me a coffee?"